p3iEe's Xanga

Friday, September 19, 2008

Fri, 19 Sep 2008 13:16:34 GMT

Bored ...bored...bored...totally do not what to do a home? Going out with friends?? Nononono...friends have their own life and family, I cannot keep on looking for them.
Boy friend?...Yeah, I have one but not beside me.. He is far away from me. What is he doing right now? He is watching a basketball match. No time to entertain me even i called him just now. Haizz...what a stupid girl get a boy friend so far away
Sitting in front of computer, I also wondering what am I going to do with it. Surf net...do not know which website should I go...haha (feel to knock my head? ) I did go to read shinyi's blog to share her happiness meting her boy friend, Rob and go to Carol's blog, see the yummy yummy food...Carol, those pictures make me feel hungry...
I think its time for me go to bed and have a date with white horse prince in my dream...wakakaka
Cya

Saturday, August 23, 2008

Sat, 23 Aug 2008 06:14:07 GMT

今年公司的人事变动很大，今天又有一位同事已递上辞呈。她先生收到了大学的offer letter,念 PHD。毕业后可以在该校当教授。听到她的另一半有大好前途，我还真羡慕她将来生活无忧了，当然也为她高兴。顿时，我在想以后的我会不会也能生活无忧呢？自己会不会嫁对老公呢？因为怕嫁错郎啊！羡慕归羡慕，一切还得靠运气，你说对吗？

Thursday, April 24, 2008

Thu, 24 Apr 2008 08:42:30 GMT

Where is my freedom??!! I am like a bird which has legs but no wings. I couldn't fly out of the circle of 26 year life. I have no permission to do own decision, every things once decided mostly will be banned. I am not little girl anymoe, why I can't away from home to try new things? I feel so sad about that.

I know every parent care for their children, try their best to protect their children but too protective won't make me grown up. I will not have the capability to overcome any problems, not independent at all. That's not what I want!!!!!!

Why never listen to the sounds from my heart? Why think that every decision is the best for me? Why....Why...Why....????!!!

Monday, March 31, 2008

Mon, 31 Mar 2008 07:56:58 GMT

在一段感情里，谁迁就谁比较多是很重要的吗？我很迷茫。。。

Wednesday, February 13, 2008

Wed, 13 Feb 2008 11:00:58 GMT

终于我对他说出我心中的的话。我让他知道之前他对我抱怨，让我感觉到因为我所以朋友变得少之又少。他听后对此看法也不否认，顿时我感到自己的出现是多么的多余。

我鼓起勇气问他：“是不是该从中选其一呢？”

气氛就像在空气中凝固，他一言不发。我不死心，再问他到底有没有听到我的问题。

生气了，他生气了！！叫我重复问题，但是我忘了吃豹子胆，所以将问题往肚里吞。他警告说，如果再有下次，他将不理我了。

我到底要怎么做才对？谁可帮帮我？？

Tuesday, February 12, 2008

Tue, 12 Feb 2008 08:25:11 GMT

Long time I did not check my message in my friendster. Finally, I checked them today. I got a message from a friend ~Carol~, a gal I met few times. I felt touch with the once I read them. Thanks gal!! Let me share with you guys

Hi, Pei Ee...

Happy birthday to you! Just wanna wish that you'll have a better year to come and one year older, one year wiser :)

At times if you don't find things to be easily overcome... you have to remember, if it involves people... communicate with them.... if it is your heart that feels very troubled... communicate with your heart...

There are always ups and downs in our life and everyone have their set of problems, their set of worries :)

As much as we all wish to be the happiest person on earth... we will need to understand that nothing should stop us from trying our best...

We have pretty close birthdays :)
THis year has been a great year for me, or at least with a great a start...

I do hope to see more greater and happier things to come and I pray that would be the same for you too! :)

Cheer up, girl!!!

Warm Regards,
Carolyn

After you read the message, do you agree with me that she is sweet friend?? Sure you will, right? All the best to you too, Carol.

Monday, February 11, 2008

Mon, 11 Feb 2008 04:19:26 GMT

I feel so down...BUT I can't show it. I still have to smile, laugh, talking nonsense...bla bla bla

I even not dare to tell you, if not sure end up with argument. I know what you would tell me...Like just now, you do not have to work BUT AGAIN no time for me. I only answered "not the 1st time la" and you blame me no consideration..I'm sad by the time you say so, tears in my eyes. I force myself to swallow them coz I do not want any argument.

We can't meet each other every day....even a year meet up less than 10 days. If everyday no communication between us, I can imagine the ending for the story.

You told me, this year your friends become little, if I complaint you do not company me, your friends become lesser coz you no time to meet friends. In this case, you better choose either you want friends or me. I do not want 2 of us feel so hard.

Tuesday, February 05, 2008

Tue, 05 Feb 2008 07:42:57 GMT

A bored day....nothing to do in the office...alone in the department.. What can I do to spend my time?? Yes...bluffing in my blog...talking nonsense here

Before come to Rat Year, its really a sad year to me...few persons I know already say good bye to this world. One of them is my beloved grandma...I miss miss miss miss miss her so much!! I know she live happily in heaven now. If not I know she still will suffer...cant eat too much, cant wake up, cant walk....I only can put you as memory in my heart...

Time pass so slow...even when come to back home time...I still need to wait...wait...wait...wait...and wait. Its really a hard time...cannot go home in time not because I need to work over time...is only need to wait for my mom to fetch me. I hate to wait for people and hate to be late. I will be angry if someone make me late to work. So dont try to do so!!

A friend I knew for years, I heard she cry through the phone when I call her. I can feel how sad she is and helpless at that time. Feel so down when heard about the news, I did not know what can I do for you. I hope you can get through the hard time soon, as I did although sometimes we will still feel sad when think of her (your grandma & my grandma) We always ready for you when you need to talk. Cheer up...my friend!!

Oh ya...I haven't upload my birthday pictures..hope will do it soon

Monday, January 21, 2008

Mon, 21 Jan 2008 08:34:05 GMT

我好想拥有属於自己的一部车。。。超想的！！
有了车，我不用再最后一个放工回家；

有了车，我不用在当司机；

有了车，我想去哪就去哪；

Monday, January 21, 2008

Mon, 21 Jan 2008 04:31:22 GMT

涴些日子以来，每次都以为是自己的错觉，欺骗自己我们还是像以前那样是好朋友。但一次又一次的被排挤，落单，我才醒觉她们已在我的不知不觉中，让我渐渐远离她们的圈子。

我常在想自己到底做错了什么令她们这样对我？什么事情严重到舍弃我们的友情？？我不懂。。。真的不懂！！曾经有了她们，我的世界变得多姿多彩；现在也是她们让我回到一个人的世界，一个孤孤单单的世界。

为什么？？！！你我之间的友情那么的脆弱。。。